January 2012
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Thank God, Allah, Buddha, aliens, or whoever truly created the universe for good music, good people—that are rare to find, long showers, and beds…Most especially beds.
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Accuracy.
Your Existing Situation
“Is not making any progress, but unwilling to put any further effort into the situation. Seeking more comfortable conditions where very little is required of her. “
Your Stress Sources
Unfulfilled hopes have lead her to be cautious and mistrusting. Insists she have full control over her actions and will not let anything hold her back or stand in her way....
ahlay asked: You are so beautiful.
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One of my latest obsessions: my eating habits. Healthier has felt better somehow. And I feel as though it’s something I can control. For once, there’s something I can control.
For dinner, I had a hearty soup loaded with vegetables and a little bit of rice, as well as toasted ciabatta bread with mozzarella cheese and minced garlic. Mmmm, I’d like to turn back the time just to...
I want to be good to somebody.
I’m sure that at least one person I know who sees this would read it and say some variation of, “Even though you screw up, you’re good to me.” But you and I both know that I won’t and will probably never believe you. That’s just how I am. I’ll check this off when I do something for a person that I feel they truly deserve. I have yet to complete such a...
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I spent most of my day cleaning, preparing for finals, and cooking (baked some red-snapper and made wild rice for my brother and I, yum!). I’ve been eating a lot these past three days, and I’m just beyond ecstatic that my gluttonous appetite is back. I have no clue as to why it subsided for a while…Oh, and I’m still pescetarian.
Latest addictions? Sliced pineapples and,...
All I feel like doing is consuming carbs.
Anonymous asked: why did you and michael break up? ):
Awhile ago, I logged onto our private Twitter accounts and laughed my ass off. I couldn’t help but to feel some nostalgia for all those raunchy, cheesy, and/or nauseatingly cute tweets with you.
In other news, January 14th, 2012: Purchased more additions to my closet and bought snacks (pita chips, triscuits, chocolate, etc.)
Hooray for having the appetite of a 317 lb, 43-year-old man!
Winter melancholy. I hope this is all I’m feeling. Or rather, I wish it was. It doesn’t feel too safe to hope anymore. For reasons unknown, I can’t bring myself to do what’s necessary…And I feel colder than I ever have.
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What do I want for myself?
Sometimes, I know the answer. But because I don’t believe I deserve what makes me happy, I don’t go for it.
Anonymous asked: how was your day? :)
This entire time, I’ve been feeling as if I am being picked apart and simply cannot help it. I’m just going to let it happen and wait for a random burst of positivity that will gradually lead to the “I will rule the world someday and I am unstoppable” feeling.
What a great excuse not to start on homework.
December 2011
28 posts
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2011 Recap.
I tend to do this just to get an overall perspective of how my year went. Or to simply feel some nostalgia for the year. It was quick, but most definitely not easy. If you’re tagged in this post, you’re in the summary! (: So click “Read More” and “Find” your username to see where you come into play. You can read below after finding yourself!
It being the last day of the year, many...
“Chicago” by Sufjan Stevens and “Clocks” by...
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I hate that I don't listen to myself.
Alcoholics Anonymous
Tonight, I got the chance to sit-in during an AA meeting. This room of 9 people, for the lack of a better phrase, managed to tug at my heartstrings. Their feelings were so palpable and I couldn’t help but to wish I had my journal handy to jot down some of my own thoughts while listening to their experiences. I think I’d really like to purchase their book Twelve Steps and Twelve...
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Today, I went to Walmart and bought two lemons and baby food (don’t judge). I was actually looking for mystical fire powder (Google it!) but every employee just thought it to be an insane request. After having washed and sliced the lemons in half, I went to the park and tried to eat them. They were sour, and disgusting, and that’s exactly what I had expected. I then dumped zero-calorie...
To be quite honest, I like the home alone, laying on the floor, blaring disgustingly sappy love songs, and singing to the ceiling moments…You know. That empty pint of your favorite ice cream spilled over and the same spoon you like to use has been hurled across the room…And you don’t want to hear yourself think. Most importantly, you don’t even want to feel…So you...
Today, I realized I haven't had bacon in a while....
Anonymous asked: I'm curious... How far have you gone with your boyfriend?
I almost forgot about how strongly music affected me. I was feeling kind of down yesterday morning, but on the way to Adventuredome with everyone singing along to what came out of Brandon’s speakers made for an unexpectedly great ride. I thanked him for that. It was so nice to be away, knowing school was still moving forward without us. On the field trip, we got to be with people...
What happened to you?…Have you grown into such an influence that you’ve forgotten what you stood for? I remember a time when we’d talk about everything we felt like at least every other day. And we’d tell each other the best variations of “soon everything will be alright”…I miss you, and nowadays, I simply just hear about you from other people who used to...
Complaints for Wednesday, the 7th of December.I am so tired from being at school till 6 giving tours to strangers and faking enthusiasm, as well as faking the way I feel towards being at WCTA over a regular high school. I am also tired of decorating and making snowflakes, and I never want to see snowflakes again; unfortunately, I have to decorate the wall from C109 to C105 tomorrow during 4th...
You know things aren’t quite right when you wake up to long messages from a series of different people. You also know that things are wrong when you wake up at two in the morning and don’t plan on going back to bed.
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I wonder if you still believe my acts of getting by…I just don’t want you to worry about me, because I know well that you worry about enough.
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I don't like feeling very much.